Daddy God's beloved child
thank You for Your never ending and unfailing love for me.. for giving yourself up for me, Your own life. You'll never leave me nor forsake me, but you have made yourself forever with me.. everywhere I go, there You are. You protect me, You are my shield. my awesome Protector and Provider.
this is Your year of crowned goodness. Let this be real in my life for this year 2011 Lord. I confess Your blessings and Your goodness over me, over my house and my family. Bless me, enlarge my territory and my influence Lord. Add and multiply to me great wisdom and great strength. Keep evil far away from me, and guard my heart and mind with Your strong power as I fix my eyes on Jesus and His finished work on the cross. I thank You that I am bought with the precious blood of Jesus, the Most High God. That I am not my own, but I am His.
Enlarge my capacity to receive Lord, and to walk in Your grace.
12:06 a.m.
is it the look in your eyes
^^
12:03 a.m.
our start was hilarious. we made our way on the car to Chef Heng's place.. only to find that the place no longer existed!! haha. and jw suddenlly rmbed he had an AGM to attend. it was just really funny, all the silly things that happened. shufen asked. does this happen all the time? lol.
i was glad that jaymes was there to be with me and my cg. tho it was his first time.. i think it went really well, that everyone was comfortable with him and all. and.. he didn't finish his story of our game: tell two things about yourself, 1 real, 1 fake, and let the questions and votes begin to see which is true or false.
but most of all, i think i was really glad that when jianwei prayed for junxiong at the end, he stepped up to stand behind jx and put his hand on him, even tho he is not part of my cg! like.. hmm, an armorbearer? would like to think so.. someone who avails himself to be there and can help in whatever is needed. armorbearers are faithful.
well there wraps up my day, an enjoyable day.. just enjoying this life I've been given. and with the new people too. I really quite like them, they are special and just themselves. hee. it is a good day. and now, gd night!
01:33 a.m.
somehow, being tired or satisfied after a full day just lets you totally unwind at that point of time. and appreciate the other things that you now have less time for. the friends and the fun on weekends... music that you can listen to. it was nice to just unwind. Now i know why some people just come back and chill by watching anime or gaming. haha. just need to unwind.
was my first day of work at my new place today!
a first permanent position.. or almost permanent position after a probation period. i'm still unravelling things.. trying not to be too lost, getting little bits here and there, being observant. learning to catch things fast. haha. observe observe... and not get too tired out in the middle. I realised cos i've been having free itme for so long, now getting back into work shape, needs a little bit more pushing. I'm thankful that I get to put anointing oil on myself before going to work... and that Jesus is with me. Without it, I would be much more lost..
somewhere in the beginning, i wondered what i was doing there.. questioned is it really the place for me?? or am i just following the easy way just because it seems to have open doors? and wondering whether it would be challenging enough for me.. well. it got better as the day progressed. got to research on interactive media stuff! well a little only. and read some of the p5s math. hmm, well i will learn more about it as time progresses.
well, it will be good. I believe and trust God that He has placed me here, and I will be a blessing to these people.. even when I'm tired or don't particularly like what I'm doing, when i sang that short worship song.. out from me came the sense that, just be faithful to this.. just be faithful in this. and I know God will help me, lead me in all things and into paths of success. Let me rest.. in this year of Restful Increase.
01:02 a.m.
I am Afraid, I hear myself say. And in the saying, I practice the presence of Fear, rather than rest in the safety of God. Jesus says His Spirit within me is one of power, love, and a sound mind. But He whispers while Fear is loud.
Fear screams for me to run.
Fear pushes me to produce protection.
And so I stand on rock and watch as the sand sinks swiftly down.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
i love you Lord. and You're the only one who loves me perfectly. i love you :)
Let all head knowledge drop down into my heart. let me walk the talk.
let all of Yourself become more and more of a reality in my life this year Lord.
bless me with Your awesome and overflowing goodness Lord. My cup overflows with Your joy. Your peace and shalom. All over me. Amen.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
it's a beautiful night
we're looking for something dumb to do
hey baby, i think i wanna marry you
or is it this dancing juice
who cares baby
I think i wanna marry you
Thursday, August 12, 2010
went out with the cg today for a peranakan dinner and worship (a short one) at ECP. new people were there... shufen, glenn, and jaymesy.
was really much more enjoyable than i expected. had lots of fun talking to them at the dinner table.. heh maybe i talked a little bit much! but well. they were fun. were there primarily to celebrate junxiong's birthday!!! haha. a surprise indeed.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
coming home on the bus today, listening to my ipod on my in-ears... for one of the first times in a while, I just sat and enjoyed the music.. not thinking about anything much else, but just really enjoying it.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Overcoming Fear
But God beckons me, Come.
But God whispers I have already overcome.
To be love-led rather than fear-driven is to stand on the rock underneath.
07:12 p.m.
a new season coming up.. stepping into it full fledged. work commences on monday, and love commences.. has it commenced? haha. not officially i guess.
but one thing that's happened in this past month is also that i've been missing a bit of spending time with the Lord. I've been so caught up with other stuff, put so many other things above that.. and i guess something in me misses that, and yet procrastinates to do so.
before wed prac, i played on my piano a little.. and got that worship feeling. not even practising, but basking in the song for a while. it's really been pretty long since i've done that. and today i listened to the Rest sermon twice.. it's just a good reminder.. and i realise now, something that i have to keep reminding myself, or deciding to do. i know Jesus misses me too, cos He's been calling out to me in that small still voice, but sometimes I don't always listen.
deciding to rest once again. to make decisions based on that peace and presence, not my emotions or other factors.. to rest again. not diving straight into things but taking time to know that I'm trusting in the Lord that it is good. even in small things. taking time to enjoy His presence. To know that His lovingkindness is better than life.. is better even that what I enjoy now. To work and do out of rest, not out of clockwork motion.
to sleep now. :)
Friday, July 23, 2010
loving life.. loving the past few weeks that have gone by. so many things have happened, but all very sweet. :)
gd nights. :)
12:17 a.m.
today was our 2nd rehearsal for the Zone Musical. It was AMAZING.
started out with songs... when Cheryl mentioned that to us on Tues, I was actually unsure of that.. maybe cos I hadn't envisioned what it really meant to be working on a musical. means the music is a very large part of it actually. So she said, she'll give us 2 hours to do.
so, do, we did. just two hours the day before, we came up with parts and stuff to add on to the song. And today, hearing a team that CAN sing well, (amazingly.. blown over, melting and awe-ing..) doing their parts well, in harmony, was like. WOAH. it's coming together in a way I never even imagined. I love the people, they have such hearts and excitement and onz-ness to serve and be a part of this. No matter how large or small the role is, the desire to just be a part of it, was evident. :)
Hearing opening song come together in the morning, it was wow.
Love song for the two leads, another wow. I never knew our girl could sing like that! very nice. as we polish it up more and they get more into their characters... I know that it will be so awesome, for there is much grace, even in this short periods of time that we have to do stuff. can hear the anointing in their voices, as well as the director and team's anointing to bring all that out of our cast. Cheryl's direction is amazing, and also fun and enjoyable. Character exercises...and i laugh at them. so funny sometimes.
so despite tiredness and my natural gg on to 'chiong' for music things.. (people have to tell me i'm tired before i know it), well. it is satisfying. :))) feel happy to be used in this musical, and things we have never done bfore (me and diana discussed abt this..) wow. we see that we are able to do it now. just stepping into it. Benjamin generation.. a generation graced 5 times more. God's doing wonderful and powerful things :)
Saturday, July 10, 2010
feeling really really tired now... haha. but satisfied.
08:44 p.m.